The Adventures of Flybunny

I'll Cry If I Want To...

Because it's my birthday but you know what, I don't really want to. 

Last year I wrote this and as I reread it this morning, it still is rings true although some things have changed.  I do embrace my age as I don't think getting older is a bad thing.  It is the life experiences as we get older that make us the people we are. 

Today is going to be a good day.  Tyler is going to accompany Mommy in getting a pedicure and maybe to buy a new outfit.  I was greeted this morning with singing and hugs and kisses (with a few requisite fights thrown in because even though it is my birthday the world must go on). 

Tonight we are going to see a soccer game because what birthday isn't complete with out a soccer game? Apparently mine.  Anyway, one of the boys that played for Mr Fly a couple of years ago is playing against one of our local universities this evening so we will go and watch him.  I might complain but I do like to watch a good soccer game and this one should fit the bill.

Tomorrow I am having brunch with one of my bestest friends and what makes it even more special is that she lives in Dallas and just happens to be in town for a wedding during my birthday weekend.  I cannot wait.  Hopefully Mr F and I will be able to sneak away for a nice dinner, just the two of us, if we can find a sitter I trust with Tyler.

Even with the events of the past month, and I just cannot fathom that in 3 short days it will be a months since we lost Mom, I am in a good place.  I have good days and bad days but the good far outnumber the bad and things are starting to fall into place.

So if you are so inclined, please have a drink for me today as I can only have a couple (darn nursing) and celebrate who you are.   Think about what makes you special and embrace it.  Enjoy my birthday because I know I am going to.
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Me and Other Things

Me

I am still on a roller coaster of emotion.  I thought I was doing great and by all accounts, I really was and then we went to see my Dad on Sunday and I had to help him fill out life insurance forms and clean out Mom's purse and since then I have been very sad.  Of course as always there are other things going on that are causing additional stress and I think that is just magnifying how much I miss her because I miss being able to talk to her about those things.

The purse is what really got me and my Dad.  My Dad of very few opinions that he is willing to share told me how much he always liked this particular purse and the two things that really set me off were the pile of kleenex at the bottom because Mom could always be counted on to have a tissue when you needed ( they even smelled like her mints) and her sewing kit. 

Mom could always be counted on to do my mending because I have never taken the time to learn to sew.  She was appalled when I first entered the business world and would fix my hems with double sided tape and a stapler - who needs a seamstress when you have a supply closet???  Her sewing was also the cause of my first my Mom is really gone moment.  Abby tore a ruffle off her skirt and was really upset and I looked at her and told her it was OK, Grandma could easily fix it and then I burst into tears.  It was unfortunate that this happened in public and not at home and garnered me some stares but honestly I didn't really care and was really more worried about how Abby would react and she didn't really other than to point out what I said.

Other Things

Mr Fly and the big girls were in a wreck a couple of weeks ago.  Nobody was hurt but the car was totaled which presents a whole other set of problems.  I did not like the gas sucking SUV but we had almost paid it off and were going to save up so I could get a new car and now I guess I will drive my car for a while longer and now we have to spend the weekend looking for new vehicle that can hold all of Mr F's coaching gear that we can afford.  The only good thing in all of this is when we bought the gas sucker we also got the gap insurance so we shouldn't be out any money but will be starting all over.

I am employed again by the same company that laid me off in March.  I haven't started yet because said company has to do a drug screen and background check again.  I have had my offer for over 2 weeks but still don't have a start date and am really starting to get nervous.  We have savings but I don't want to have to dip to far into it.  I left a message for the new manager today and hope to hear back from him soon.

Since I am going back to work and Tyler's daycare is the opposite way of posh school and soccer season is in full swing, we are going to look into hiring a part-time person to pick the big girls up every day and  bring them home and stay until I get home.  This has turned out to not be such an easy task and until that happens life is going to suck because it is a 40 min drive from daycare to school and then 25 min back to our house and Tyler DOES NOT like to be in the car.  Keep your fingers crossed for me.

All in all, things are pretty good just some unexpected blips that are causing a little extra stress but nothing that I can't handle.  Life is finally settling down at our house and that is a good thing.