Reflection

As you all know, my year was filled with ups and downs and many many other frustrations.  As. I look backward, I can honestly say I am slamming the freaking door in the face of 2007.  I am thrilled to have the baby in my life but other than that, 2007 can kiss my lily white ass. 

There has been so much going on that I haven't blogged about, drama with my FIL's significant other, the drama within my own family, my struggles with being back in the work force and trying to balance the kids and the domestic chores and family finances etc etc.  There are days when I feel the weight of the world and just want to run away from it all.

BUT I have a beautiful family that love me and make me so happy.  Mr Fly is so supportive and loving even on the days when I am pretty unlovable.  The big girls make me laugh and Tyler has a smile that could light up the world.  I have so many things to be grateful for and I have to keep those things in my sight.  I have a job that allows me to provide for my family.  I have a home, with heat and air conditioning.  I have my health.  I have love, lots and lots of love.

And now I look towards the upcoming year.  I can't quite bring myself to say I am excited but I am being cautiously optimistic.  We have some things in the works that will hopefully give me peace of mind.  We are going to hire someone to come in and clean every other week.  We are seeing a financial planner to help me get our finances in order and I am really really close to convincing Mr F that we need to hire one of those organization experts to come in and help us get our house in order, although at this point that might be a long shot.

All that aside, I am going to make more time to take care of myself.  I am going to embrace my job and appreciate it for what it is - a job. I am not going to let others project their insecurities on to me without consequence - meaning they are going to hear about it, not to be mean but I have to much of my own emotion to deal with without having to deal with others.  I am going to appreciate my kids for who they are as individuals.  I might even try to start blogging more regularly again.  Above all, I am going to seek happiness and make 2008 a year of laughter and love.

I thank all of you, my dear dear readers, for sticking with me through this year of whining and crying and rejoicing and most of all for your support for without you, this year would have have REALLY REALLY sucked.  I wish for all of you to have a year of love, laughter and peace.

So I leave you with this my 3 wise girls

and smiley says "Go Tigers!!!"